Dear weng,
I'm not sure where you live, but where I live and in my culture, if a man hits a woman, the woman should go to the police. Men can not beat women.

It is abuse.
It's not right.

It's totally understandable that you feel differently towards him even though you say he has now "changed for the better".

Where you live, are there any places you can go for support?

Do you have any access to women's shelters or women's health centres?

There should be people there who would be able to support you and give advice to you so that you can deal with the emotional and physical fallout after all that abuse. What about family of your own? Family or friends? Do you have anyone there at all with whom you would feel safe sharing your situation?