It is so hard to keep smiling when you are experiencing any type of severe pain for a prolonged period surferOO. I too have snapped at people close to me, not in my nature either. Sometimes the pain and discomfort are just more than we can handle. We are only human after all. Pain of any kind can sure make us do and say things we would never dream of doing under better circumstances.

Good luck at your dr's. appt. Three years is a long time to keep smiling and pushing through relentless pain, without any relief. I hope you find a way out of your bad place
soon!