Hi,

I am not trying to get back to the old me, I don't know that I will every be able to. I am now 25 months pcs and still not able to work. I have been driving in the past few months and that has being incredibly liberating. I use to spend my life in the car driving to work and driving 4 kids around.

You have to push through and fine new things that you enjoy, it can open up a whole new world. I realize how isolating things are but you have to find new things that will enrich your life.

I got a disability parking sticker so going out is a lot easier. When I do activities at home I usually have a stool to sit on and I can last a whole lot longer. Standing will fatigue me a lot quicker.

Twice a week I go across the street in my pajamas and watch t.v. with a retired couple. I watch the mentalist on Sunday and Tuesday Person of Interest and NCIS. It may not seem alot but I really look forward to these evenings. I have my diet coke and just pass an enjoyable time with these two people.

I have passed on most of the grocery shopping to my kids as it was just too hard and used up too much energy.

I bought an actifryer and I am learning how to make some really neat things in it. It new and I am excited by it.

I don't know if I will every be able to camp or kayak again but instead I am looking for things I can do.

The hardest part is living with the uncertainty but you have to respect that it will take as long as it takes to heal and nobody can really tell you when that will be.

It is also hard to deal with insurance company who want you back at work and dealing with having very limited resources. It is really important to get that stress and put it away because it will slow down your recovery.

It is hard to deal with other people's expectations of what you should be able to do and that you look great. You have to put that in box of "other people just don't understand".

The best thing you can do for your family is to get better. Getting better means putting what you need first. It can be hard but it get easier as time gets on. I am no longer super mom but they still love me.

Good luck, I feel your pain, but it does get better.