Im so sorry

I am having that kind of day too. My burning is worse than ever and I tell myself its the healing process that I still believe in and they say if you do get healing it will hurt as nerves heal. The last couple days I notice my little pinky toe is jerking, like, twitching, I can feel it and see it, does not hurt, feels like a twitch or muscle movement. I watched it till it happened again, and I keep telling myself its a sign of healing.

But despair creeps in. I went grocery shopping today and my left foot swelled and burned worse than ever in my life, it always did while doing a 1 to 2 hour trip to walmart but this time I could hardly focus I just threw crap in my cart all I could do was dream of getting home.

In times of crisis despair creeps in but then I try and change my attitude and pray it away and cling to hope of the healing I pray for.

I hope this is the case for both of us. Im sorry your having such a hard time, truly. If nothing else, this last year has taught me true empathy.