if this depression that has a hold on me
something I fight every single day
can be shaken off like dust

if this ride will ever level out
for it to stop is death

if my innards
in knots when I let myself
wonder "what if"
it has to stop

If it be a possibility
that Eva's mother
stop the bull turd
baby
it's no option
however for it to be
on forced terms

If it ever crossed her mind
the Judge say
that's it
and the baby
be in some strangers
arms

If she will
ever get "it"
I am keeper

If anyone else in
this family could
be keeper of me

If I can start this day over
it would be any different

If I can say
Thank you for letting
me share