I keep wondering what I am doing with my life. Maybe I am depressed?
I can't seem to get motivated to do much of anything. I am getting my hair colored today. I did make coffee this morning.
I am relying on jeff more and more these days to do the cooking.
neither one of us clean so the house is a mess.
I sit here in my jammies....
I should be more active...
I should read the newspaper and watch the news...
I should know my local politicians and current events...
I should be more grateful for my life...
I should go to the gym...
I should clean my house...
I should clean up my yard...
I should take a shower...
I should cook at home more often instead of eating out all of the time...
I should get a hobby...
I should be more intimate with jeff....
I should do my paperwork....
I should do the check book....
I should be following my diet...have gained weight again...
I should be happy with my life...

All I want to do is sit here on the computer.
It takes the least amount of effort and yet it is pleasurable.
It could be worse...
I could still be in bed...
I could be crying...
I could be sick and unable to work...
I could not have any friends...
my family could disown me...
I could be living on the streets..
I could have lousy health insurance and not afford therapy...
I could be drinking again and waking up with a hang over....

It is only day 5 of being alcohol free this time....

I need to get a life...