this past week has just been one bad day after one bad day.

I'm pretty much on my last nerve.

I've been trying to be nice to my mom, since she has problems with her temper from having had a TBI over 50yrs ago, and then having West Nile encephalitis in 2012. She has no brain-to-mouth filter, and everything she says is pretty much said in snarl form.

She's been really nasty to me and my dad lately. My dad has been pretty sick with his heart condition. Sick enough that I'm extremely worried about him. (he won't go to the doctor, except for the ones where they do blood tests)

I kind of lost it earlier today. My mom was being really nasty to both me and my dad. (she was screaming that she wanted to die) I just came downstairs and closed my not-yet-painted-no-doorknob-installed-yet bedroom door, and just kind of sat and cried. I am so stressed out the past few days. All I do is sleep, but I don't get any actual rest. I'm tired all the time. All my mom ever does is complain and yell at me. She berates my dad all the time. You can only take so much verbal abuse before you want to snap.

My back hurts. For some reason my shoulders are both starting to hurt like they did when I had frozen shoulder during the fall. I'm numb all over.

I'm missing a couple of really fun activities that my dad said I could have gone to if I'd been healthy enough. (meaning he would have paid for me to go to a Sherlock Holmes convention in Atlanta this weekend if I wasn't sick. I could have met a ton of my online friends who are also knitters/crocheters. Totally missing out on that)

I'm quickly becoming an agoraphobic hermit, that's never going to leave her parent's basement.

just hitting the brick wall of all-I-can-take-at-the-moment.

you know how they say that stress is bad for MS, and you should reduce your stress?? I'm getting a first hand look at why they say that. It's true.