I'm sorry you're going through this. It is quite a scary thing to be feeling all that. All of us on here can totally relate.

You said "i feel so " not on earth" its like im dreaming" and I totally relate to that. I felt like that too until I saw an osteopath who was able to get me grounded again and feeling like myself in the first visit. She is also able to help with other injuries to my jaw and face that happened when I fell. With the osteopath I really have been making such great progress. I continue to see a chiro, massage therapist and a concussion Dr because all my symptoms are not gone . . . but finally, after 5 months (didn't see the osteopath until 4 months post concussion) I am driving again and have soo much more energy. It sounds like I see a lot of different people but don't see them all at once . . . I think our bodies are made so complex that it takes many different specialties to help heal them. Each one contributes something beneficial.

Just rest a lot too, take the pressure off yourself that you need to be healed by a certain time. It's hard to do, but once I submitted to this and took everything off my schedule (hard to do with my own photography business, being a wife and mom of two boys) I think that is when I started healing more too . . . make sure you can sleep at night . . . I found that
L-Theanine and Melatonin (both natural supplements) were great for relaxing my mind and getting the sleep I needed at night so the brain can heal.

All the best to you!