Father
Brother
Mother Mary

thank you for another day

confused
usually when the weather is dry and nice
my pain is not magnified
as barometer does affect me
and my knees feet hips
hurt so badly lasts night
the most i did was go to scheduled
doctors appointment pain specialist
just a few towns away
not anything a person does in their
home such as tidy up take shower dress
it is difficult sometimes to dress
take the dreaded elevator
there was not much walking
involved
so i rule out any over doing it
the night before there was much muscle
twitching it was mentioned to my doctor
and he asked if i was taking my muscle
relaxant answer yes
Father again am i okay
did my cancer migrate
this will be ruled out soon
my body has become so
fragile in many areas and
this is not seen by another
i eat healthy
the best i can
and i am as i am
and do the best with it
and still not bad
to another who does not know
me on a good day wouldn't
know and that's great
but my kids should be a little
more compassionate to some things
i can't do myself
then wind up doing it myself in anger
as anger and pain masked for a while
and finish a job
i suffer immediately when relaxed
so i am hip to the gig
the nortriptyline 50mg a night to help
not doing the job as i see i
am on something for three months now
paying attention
Father my mind can not be at ease
until i have diagnosis ruled out
and i will move on
i pray all is well with me
in this situation
my granddaughter is my saving Grace
i have reared her well
a happy baby
a beautiful baby
a brilliant imagination
a wonderful heart
a aunti Corissa who see the love
as she remembers what special things
i did for her
especially the breakfasts
and when we played legos
my grand baby as all my children
lovvvvvvvvvvvve them
she still needs me as mom is still in
and out of recovery
some of the delay is moms understanding
she needs to do alone recovery
finish the program
and i will continue to help
i have custody as it is
and i want to keep it temporary
mommy will i pray get it
its has been a long tough road
and the workers don't know if they are coming
or going
not a surprise
like loose most all of file
Father only you know my
headache of many not doing their job
experiences with child support department
i know only too well
thank you for your love
and allowing me to share