as angry as i am at my children
they all know i cannot do things as i did
and if they don't know me by now
they will never know me
to tell my daughter
do as the judge said
i am doing what i can for my
granddaughter and mother thinks i
should have to do things alone
no no no
she doesn't want to understand this
as my other older children
i just learned from my eldest child
she would let Eva go up for adoption
heaven forbid my children should help
anyway they can
i am mortified utterly mortified
i want to vomit it hurts so badly
my daughter Corissa in a bad way
oh let me kick her to the curb
oh my God
i never knew she felt like that
i am so sad so sad
what do i do with this where do i put this
how do i process this
she just would give her up
just like that never going to happen

never going to happen
i cannot allow anyone to
step on me
i feel so alone in this matter
oh how horrible i feel
let it pass please let it pass
no one no one
alone
Brother carry me
i need to have stability
in one way or the other

i turned to Saraeve for comfort
after mom took a hissy fit
reminding her of the perks she
has received others may look
at is as enabling
this i won't allow
as the moment her mother steps foot
into this home she is to take over 100 and 10%
my granddaughter is helpless too
what does she know
one thing for she knows this as home
a safe place her auntie Corissa will
be here to help pick up some of the pieces
maybe help her understand the responsibility
now that she will be reduced to a GED
this a gifted child in a school for her talents
above her expectancy
until i became ill her father an donkeys butt
made her life even more confusing
and now he sees the real truth
and apologized
it meant nothing
to late
i had to take the bull by the horns
no regrets none i will do this
it is going to be hard
but i will do it
i want to punch something
it hurts so badly
i had no clue
my daughter felt that way
it hit me like a bomb
i blown away
can't say anymore