I took pictures, or tried to show her on my iphone, she glanced at them. I took notes, medical papers, articles on em, etc, she wasnt interested. When she walked in she immediately noticed my feet and said, oh wow. Actually, they looked great, little swelling, little blue, not in a flare. She thought they looked horrid. She said, you dont consider this swollen? I said no, not compared to how bad they get, this is very little. She was surprised.

I am stuck with her for now. Insurance requires referral, she was referred, she is running tests, I go back in three weeks. But when I go back, I wont be the timid mouse with a restrained mouth like I was this time. I literally lost my voice in trying to please her and that wont happen again considering she already appears to dislike me.

I agree, medication is not meant to take periodically. My mom just said the same thing to me, along with someone at my EM forum. I guess I will try it for a week. I dunno. I feel lost and irrationally scared of medication.

Fear. My biggest enemy, that keeps me in bondage.