Originally Posted by krow46

Eva, I am so touched and mentally moved by your words. PamalaJune covered them so well there isn't much else to say. Let me share with you what I saw with my minds eye as I read your words. I saw a lady reaching out to share her joys and sadness of over five decades on this earth. A person who gave of herself freely when others failed to fulfill there responsibilities to men and ladies alike. When they didn't or were not able to be a mom or dad caregiver or provider, you took on the task expecting nothing in return. You must have the broadest shoulders Eva to carry so many tasks. You performed when others failed.


You took me from Africa as a little girl that did not have a great childhood by any means to New Jersey as a Grandmother [ proud Grandmother ] The journey as I saw it was filled with a heavy load for you and at the many crossings you encountered . You take on the burden of your daughter and hope for success this time and we also pray she can go the 12 steps and stay in the program and possibly ease your burden some. I think we all know how difficult it is to raise a teenager especially a girl. They are so trendy and have to be with the "style" of the day. When we cut them loose we pray they will remember their teaching and morals as they journey into a world that can be very very hard. You have had so many lows and highs Eva. You didn't have a good Father figure or a good husband and had to fill both duties. It makes me almost cry as PamelaJune stated. I was blessed with a fantastic lady that has been by my side through my whole trip with our marriage and RSD. I would not be here now if not for her. I know you are against another marriage but a good soul mate is a good thing Eva. Just like RSD, never give up hope. You are a precious and great lady Eva, your posts inspire me. I pray that your prayers are answered and your days go well.

My blessing is easy. I am blessed to wake up every day and I thank GOD for that every day also. My hands and feet don't work as they used to but my eyes never changed. I have watched my children get married, enter the business world, buy homes, have children [ our grandchildren ] and watch the third generation grow up. What more could I ask for? I went through the pity parties and mourning and depression [which I still battle] and have left most of that in the past. I can't change the past. Hugs to you and yours Eva, may your days be smooth as glass for a change.