The thing is, I've been doing this stuff at home, by myself for months. I've been feeling like I'm getting worse and worse, and nothing I do is stopping it. I am starting to think it's doing something very horrible to me now. I'm hoping that doing the out patient PT right now will help me get back to where I might be able to continue this at home. It's just that it's gotten worse and worse, and it won't stop, and won't leave me alone.

I've pretty much lost all my Real Life friends. I'm not even sure if I still have a boyfriend. I can barely take care of myself. I have no idea why things keep getting worse almost daily. I just want it to back the heck off.