Hi Allen, Thank you for telling me about that beautiful place you saw. I hope when my time comes, I can see it too. I'm so scared of dying, but have been close to my Priest and he has comforted me so much. I love him. He is so kind and has given me so much strength. My family and friends here on this forum have too. I want to hug you all back. I hope my rsd slows down too and that yours does too. I'm trying to find places that will let me do trial testing to see if it will help. I finally got an appt with my original pm dr. My husband ended up calling because I was so upset about my loosing my dog, that I couldn't speak to anyone. I would have said things I didn't mean and regretted later. My husband is much more diplomatic then me. So hopefully my pm dr can try to help me with the trials. He knows alot about rsd and knows alot of people who know alot about rsd too. I'm still waiting for my obgyn to call me back about the endometriosis that came back. It's been three days since I called and I also left two messages. I am freaking out and can't understand why he is taking so long to call me back. The nurse said it could spread and I want it out asap. Why don't they have any sense of urgency? I don't get it. Anyway, I'll stop talking now. Sorry I'm being so depressing. I'm just in a crappy mood again today. Just not a good week, but at least my pm dr will see me. I hope he will help. I'll let you know, and hope that maybe I can help all of you too. And I too have been trying to appreciate life more since I've have rsd. I also can't believe how much time I wasted getting upset about silly things before I got rsd. But now I try to enjoy life as much as I can. It's not always easy and depends on my pain level and things like losing my dog last week, but I try harder then I used too prior to rsd. As much as rsd sucks, it has made me try to enjoy every minute that I can and not waste as much time getting upset about things I can't control. Well, I hope you all have a pain free and beautiful day today. It's finally warming up here in Jersey. I like that. As always, my thoughts and prayers are with you all. With loving kindness, Renee.