I am concerned that this is your fourth TBI. Repeated TBIs, even "mild" ones, can lead to lingering problems.

If there was a method to trick oneself into impulse control and good judgement, I'd be thrilled. Sadly, I think we're out of luck on that one.

The good news is that you have enough self-reflection to know that your behaviour is suboptimal and unusual for you. Some TBI patients, no matter what they're getting up to, haven't got a clue that things aren't 100% okay.

The sooner you get yourself to a good TBI specialist, the better. In the interim, do you have a trusted friend or family member who could provide you with some oversight/guidance?

Good Luck