Well, I finally went back to work today for the first time since January 10th. They are having me work part time 4 hours a day until the middle of May. Today I really only did some minor heavy lifting for not that long and then the rest of it was non physical work.

Needless to say, I dont feel right. I know im not fully healed to begin with, but the Dr feels im good enough to go back. Im feeling very very doubtful, and even slightly depressed right now. Im hoping its just because its my first day back, and my body is not used to it, but I dont know if I can handle something I was once so great at.

Im hoping as the week, and next week even, goes on, maybe my brain will respond better. But I have not felt this physically exhausted in a long time. Constant headaches are back now (even though they arent nearly as bad) as well as some dizzyness and some minor lack of focus.

Im in a catch 22 here, I dont know what to do. If I go down to my HR dept (if things get worse) and inform them of all of this, theres a good chance I can lose my job I think, even though it happened at work. Like I said, im hoping its just because my body and mind is trying to get re accustomed, but man, im scared. Sorry if this sounds like jibberish, im just not fully focused, and im having a small bit of anxiety.