I'm so sorry for all of your losses Mom1965 and in such close proximity.
It takes a very long time to erase pictures of someone we love, trying to end their lives...it plays over and over in our minds for a very long time.

I'm so glad you didn't succeed in your attempt and it sounds like you are doing all that you can to help yourself and that's a good thing. If your family can't appreciate your efforts, all you can do is continue to show them that you have changed.


I admire your effort and can appreciate a dysfunctional family situation...been there, done that.

I'm so glad you've joined us, talking heals us.