Thank you very much for your reply, Yes this happend in 2011 and I have asked in the past, seriously asked if they would both attend therapy and was told no. My son, believes I need to continue therapy (which as I mentioned I did, and still see a psychiatrist regularly).

At this point my niece and sister have advised to "ignore" them, as they do me, because they do "ignore" me. they post photos of my grandson's outings first tball and I am completely not invited, and cannot share his photos..as they have me restricted. Her mom can share, it is just me who cannot. I am exhausted, and sometimes, I can literally feel my heart beating so fast, from the hurt feel , and the damage I did to my son.

I guess that is why I sought out this group. to help me manage my feelings. I am not sucidial now, and they changed my meds from lithium to lexapro, after my last suicide attempt. Lithium did not help me. I have not attempted suicide since the med switch and the intense therapy program and counseling I have attended.

I have had numerous attempts in the past, once when I was 15, and hospitalized for major depression in my late 20's. my son was around 7 yrs old. I did not attempt it at that time. I then remarried when he was 17 yrs old, and it was to a policeman, who was cheating on me and a closet alcholic. that marriage lasted one year. I did attempt suicide during that period when I found out about his alcholism and cheating. and then again I was hospitalized for depression, the year after my mom passed and my dad, had his major stroke. then my husband left me, and I attempted it again when my son found me when he was working.

My diagnosis was bi-polar but that was right after my hysterectomy, and as I said, the lithium did not help me. I am not even depressed now and am getting my third divorce. this current husband was also bi-polar and had major anger issues, and was abusive/physically and verbally. I was married to him for 8 yrs, and he is the one who left me for a brief time, and resulted in my last attempt of suicide. We are getting divorced now, and I am looking for a job. I am on SSDI, I do have my nieces support, which I am thankful for. She is my first born neice and we are very close, only 15 yrs apart.

Well, that is all for now....I am just heart broken and dont think this will ever be healed in my life time. My sons wife does not like me to begin with, but it is my son that texted my other niece and told her he can never look at me the same way.

Much thanks for listening again.