I can so relate to you, and can feel the emotion deep in the soul. I have been to the dark places. Actually have known 2 good friends I met in Braintalk, and then here when that forum went down that took their life. It left an empty place in me. I wish there was something I could have done........but they were determined to get out of what they thought was living hell.

Only a couple of days ago I was cleaning out an old email account, and came across the emails we had shared back and forth about what he was going to do, and finally did. Left me sitting there with tears and wondering if he did the right thing or not, and where is he now.

Like you I have found a good doctor, and he seems to care about me more then most of my family. I to am one to try and not take any meds, but the RSD can get the best of me, and I am forced to take some just get the edge off so I can have some relief, and give me the ability to have some kind of life.

I too am going to fight this with every breath! I will do it for those that just couldnt handle it and left us early. I will do it for all those suffering in this forum, and I will do it for me........because RSD doesnt own me! You have spurred me on! Inspired me to go forward and do the things I can, and not worry about those things I cant.

I love all the replies, and the people that wrote them! You all are some of the most caring sensitive souls I have ever come across. Dont ever stop.......you never know who reads these posts. There are literally hundreds that come by and read these posts that havent signed in as a member, and many more that are members that only read. You may have helped so many people.

I applaud you for standing up to this thing we call RSD that is one of the silent killers. We have no idea how many never find this place, so they never get that little bit of support that would have changed their course. Thank you for being open and honest, and letting us share your pain. As you go through life......come back and share your joys and successes. I will truly cry with you when your down, and will jump for joy when you. Beat it down!