My body aches so badly
All I read is the bleak prognosis
of secondary cancer
The pain described I experience
Oh let this not be true
My blood will be taken
and I will be scanned by a
new machine that will go
to the molecular level
That will be in two weeks
Father stop my brain from doing anymore
Mother I cannot imigine the pain leaving
my family behind
Brother hold me
hold me tight
Squeeze the pain from my body
All symptoms are there
America Cancer Society on matatastic disease
my breast cancer is primary and loves bone
my hips knees feet throb
as I mention time and time again
my elbows my change in urinating
including bowel
and of course to opioids used help that
my pain in the bones hips started after
removal of both breasts
Brother carry me
Father make me strong again
My Spirit bruised
Previous problems seem to be trumped
the ****** up turd is I prayed to bring me home
the pain unbearable
This new type of scan machines name "I Thrive"
is what my new internists shall do along with a slew
of blood work
To have read all I could scares the turd out of me
Life expectancy is two years
This I did and should not have read
and I did
What else am I left with I know my body
something is going on
And I pray for it to be a miracle at work
Rip it from my body melt it away
Keep me sane
We just came from court
I have custody of my grandchild
Corissa needs me Eva needs me
my children need me
will I be spared to still be here for them
I can't explain the hurt the pain the fear of leaving them behind as they are not doing well physically too
Michael my boy will have heart surgery
Christine has diabiaties with her drug addiction she fights
everyday Saraeve and her epilepsy
Corissa lost in this world I must help her and Eva now
and I have only my two sisters younger than I both also
fighting their demons
and that's it
A father who checked out by killing himself
A woman who birthed us and wants nothing to do with us
as her man and his children became hers
And there she wrote
Hold on to me Father
Brother Mother Mary
I do believe
Forever yours
Me