Thanks for all the lovely messages......just to say I have taken time to recharge my mental battery...I feel a little better and the news has gone on board....but I will be looking foward and hoping that my docs between them and anything I find we can use to my advantage. They are arranging an appointment with a specilaist some distance a way who deals with the wierd and difficult cases, so we will wait and see. I think it has just been a tough time, having to retire was hard, but now feeling like my whole life taken away was just gut wrenching...but I will be positive, I have to be and I know that you will always be here to listen and help.

Thanks to everyone...big hugs all round...thanks for letting me vent...you know I hate doing it and always feel guilty.

You lot are wonderful...a fab caring forum.

Speak soon
Hx