dear friend

a dear friend who has wonderful questions
all the ones i would be asking
yes he is court ordered to pay child support
and yes it is to be given to me for her needs
i have never asked for it as the bout
happened and because i can edit this is what just went down

because he through her out
the only place left for her
or as my eldest tells me
she slept in the laundry mat
something i didn't need to know
but nonetheless
now i tell mommy
how can you have slept in the
laundry room
she said she didn't
i didn't even bother where this all started
so she slept here last night
on the couch
baby slept late
but when she got up she went to lay with
her for a half hour
Corissa stays in my room
my sister forgot to come
my blood was to be drawn
it will now be done Thursday
what am i gonna do
out of my control

and yes you have him pegged
i make him be a father like it or not
he is very happy that she is here
you heard me right
on the couch as we speak
there to remind her it is not permanent
the room is given back to Corissa and Eva
she is not to be mistaken
all monies she is making best be for an apartment
maybe throw in there a few meetings
get her turd together so she can be a mother to Eva
this is a struggle
i know addiction very well
i a recovering alcoholic 22 years
understand it very well
hence my anger having to be a physically
physician induced addict
just robbed me on a different level
over it
this is why i still go to my home
group meeting on Sundays
something she still needs to do
the newest bull turd she walks
and here goes
in my room with how and her
"baby donkey of a father" are
going to put her in daycare and
how she will be picking her up
Judges orders she cannot be left
alone with the baby
all her doing
so after Sunday's meeting
i came out of there and said
f it
i'm taking me Corissa and baby
down the shore
Saraeve planned on cooking for us
nope
i wanted to go to the shore
and do something I wanted
so she comes also
the whole ride down there
Christine Eva's mommy
saying
this was a trick on my part
that i always wanted the responsibility
of Eva
that's darn true
when it comes to a stranger over
her family
and the Judge choose me
operative words my daughter doesn't yet
"Judge choose me"
period thank God
i call the shots now
of course never wanting this responsibility
i am suppose to be mimma
not mommy
to Christine i used trickery
so i have decided she cannot stay here
permanently
and until she does what the Judge
sees to it otherwise
i call the shots
today i will ask about the child support

he does not want her there as he still lives with mommy
this is where she has been

and when here is disrespectful
slamming doors
thinking its okay to tell me what she is going to do
in my home and life
even if she means some good out of it
that never happens this she has the opportunity
over and over and over by the Judge
DYFS closed the case concerning my daughter
because she never completed a program
and because i could be the custodial person
she stays in this family
i am comfortable knowing i can call Eva's lawyer
anytime i needed her when it comes to Eva
that's all that matters
Christine
as always materialistic with Eva especially with the sneakers

shes knocking on my door now
taking some of your suggestions
here goes

we are in a bout right now will return

and it was of-course not good
asking her about the child support was a
huge issue
she was nasty
and i told her she is confusing her
and i want it calm at all times
so i come in my room with Eva and
her Lego blocks and start
to explain to her in a
kindly way how mommy has to behave
when in mimma's home
and speak softly and gentle
and tell her
"she with mom are going to the park
with sidewalk chalk"
and mommy can go and have fun with her
she understood
Corissa is overseeing them as Corissa has her girlfriend
come over i was able to speak with her also
so for now mommy is doing laundry and will be getting ready
to go to work
it makes me so unhappy but i have to do this
she doesn't see it yet
it will only be then if ever
will she gets it
they haven't returned yet
hope she didn't say things to confuse her

and thank you so much for your input
i am on the right track
you helped confirm it
blessings you sent
love
me