I've unfortunately allowed myself to become isolated from friends due to his anger (my embaressment over it) and also my seizures so I really don't have friends. I literally know no one. I have a sister who is struggling to get her disability, her seizures are grand mal at this point and she's living with friends in another state. My mother is ill and in assisted living housing. I am afraid I will have to get out of this mess on my own, the same way I got into it :/ I get depressed over it and sometimes feel I can't do it but eventually I will have enough saved up and will be able to do it. Nothing in life comes easy