I just fell down.

I was trying to go outside to sit with my parents, and I was trying to get down the step from the front door onto the front porch.

Fell down before I could get out the front door. Right there in the middle of the doorway.

Couldn’t get up.

wouldn’t have happened if I had the <swear word> ramp that I had asked my dad for last spring right around this time. My sister and my dad’s little sister both mocked me for asking for it. That’s why I didn’t push my dad to get one built. Because my sister and his sister made fun of me every time I mentioned it.

So, I just fell on my butt in front of both my parents, and my next door neighbor. My aunt (not the one that mocked me) had to come and help me get up. She’s a nurse and knows all the good ways to help people get up. I was stuck on the floor in the doorway for about ten minutes before my aunt walked up.

I don’t think I hurt myself when I fell (back feels a little weird tho), but now all I’m doing is sitting here crying. It was scary how fast I fell too. I went straight down. I tried to hold onto the door jamb, but I had no strength in my arms and legs. I’m mad at my sister and my other aunt for making fun of me for wanting a ramp.

so tired...and now my arms and knees hurt. Knees hurt from having to bend them to try to stand up, and my arms hurt because the frozen shoulder is coming back in the left arm, and I have some sort of repetitive stress injury to my right arm from using the walker. Everything hurts right now.