Father
Brother
Mother Mary

thank you for another day

thy will be done

Father
help me pull the darkness from
my brain
the voice in my head as i write
and find the words
there are times when i am weary
and i fall to tears
each time i cry
i get closer and closer
to you
i wonder why it has been
the way it has been
hope that in the end
your glorious son
Jesus Christ
his mother Mary
to have lived as human
and teach in Spirit
to have been around at the
time your son walked this earth
sent here by you
to save us from ourselves
like when i'm weak in Spirit
i find i Thirst for you
i crave your spirit
i am alone
i wonder will i ever
have the opportunity to love
another human
someone i can count on
someone who will look at me
and not be afraid of my
inner strengths you have given me
let that special someone in my life
my heart is so cold
my blessings i receive daily
i thank you for
my grandchild nor my children
are whom i not speak of
my physical extension
you used my body
honored me with motherhood
to bring your children into this world
i thank you
my love of you is real
my body reacts
my mind reacts
my spirit becomes alive
to keep it going i try
i ask you to help me understand
why i must be alone in all this
why is there not someone to hold
me touch me look into my eyes
and see my soul
to really look into my eyes
and love me for what one will
find
if you look into my eyes

Father
this body weary
a cane to hold me up
as the ability becomes harder
and harder not to fall
my gait is not working well
wishing it were
"drunkin love"
each day i wake i thank you
each night that comes i thank you
my knees and feet hurt so badly last night
all i could do was cry cry cry
what i hope to find out Thursday
is i do not have "metastatic disease"
i beg you Father
squeeze the sickness out of me
and breath in new life of painless
physically that wants to rob me
spiritually
yet i stay connected by the
Grace of God
my dog
to some just a animal
for some
for me
my friend
for me dedication
for a healer
my reason to continue to get the love
would look into my eyes and just know
now where he needs to ultimately be
with my epileptic baby 33
will not bring s child into the world
for all medication she was on
for the amount of time
and just the last of her 10 year depression
and finally got her fire back
is a miracle in itself
to have gone through the what if's
all the surgeries
blessings from our dog
to hold him
to love him
is the closest she will allow herself
it would be to selfish of her she says
to bring a child into this world
with her life
i understand

blessings to our pet
thanking him as a pup
to have given such unconditional
companionship for us humans
i miss him and love him

Father
i have but faith
in YOU
that you did send us
our lord
as we know You are
Lord God
and i thank you
having Blessed us
sins debt free
and that is if
WE believe
as i do
forgive us
as we are sinners
Amen

blessings are all around us
open yourself up
and hold on to It
as long as you can

LOVE to the world
me