had a bad weekend, feel like crap. I might be canceling my drivers assessment for today (monday).

It has just taken too long for me to get anything done, and now I feel so bad, that I think it might be too late for me to do anything like get my hand controls, and a new car. (yeah, that's back on...if I do good at the assessment, if I take it, and they can suggest what I should drive)

That physiatrist that I had last year just kept putting me off and putting me off on the hand controls. Then the insurance changed, and I had to find a new physiatrist which took forever. Took forever to get the two appointments that I've had with him. Didn't take a lot to get the Rx for the hand controls out of that doctor, but I've gotten really discouraged having to wait so long for everything to happen.

I am so frustrated with everything. My body hurts today. I fell yesterday (saturday) and I'm terrified that will happen again. So weak at the moment, that if I do get the hand controls, I won't have the energy to walk into any stores to do anything once I drive to them.

kind of afraid that I'm going to go wheelchair shopping before I get to go car shopping. I hate MS so much right now.

It's like the MS and the world don't want me to drive, or be able to be independent.