I've had these thoughts rummaging around in the back of my head for a while. When I first met my neurologist I told her about my daily physical therapy routine and she replied by saying "or you could give yourself a break." During our most recent visit I talked about the new diet and estim therapy I was going to do following, Dr. Terry Wahls' protocol which she used to recover her own mobility and she scoffed. I also asked her about one of my new symptoms, swollen feet and little purple veins all over my ankles. She replied "It's probably because your always beating yourself up." But when I asked her to order me a motorized scooter she was all for that.

Sometimes I feel like my neurologist expects me to throw my hands up in the air and say "Yep. I'm done. I've got MS and I should stop working, stop parenting, stop being a partner to my spouse and just give up. I am MS now, nothing more!" Sadly there are only 3 neurologists in my entire county and they are all at the same practice so the choices are slim.

I'm very glad I am the type of person who when told "No" says, "Yeah, I don't like that answer I'll figure out a way."