Hi Diandra, I know how you feel. I am in my early 50's and have been in pain since I was 34. In the past ten yrs the pain has gotten worse. I had spinal lumar fusion, I had a SCS installed (did not help me) and I had a pain pump installed. My husband had to start cleaning, cooking, paying bills, etc. I felt so guilty, I felt like I was letting everyone down. About four months ago I decide not to discuss my pain with anyone unless they really understand what I am going through. When ask how I feel my respond is I am O.K. As for the cleaning, cooking, working outside, etc. I just do the best I can. I still have guilt and alot of pain. But I thing everyone here well help us through this and we will be able to help others along the way. One more thing, no matter how bad I feel I was keep smiling. It kind of helps me through the day. Rockport