I have had some adversities but was mostly doing ok.

I am having a rough time of it now though.

-- Struggling with a job hunt which so far has led nowhere. Not that I'm doing much, but what I've done has yielded no results.

-- Running out of money completely.

-- Have a nose/throat thing that the docs can't explain/resolve.

-- Irritated by money grubbing relatives trying to rob the wife of a man who didn't have time to make a will

-- Stressed by the theatrics-paperwork-legalities of the above.

-- Anxious... not surprisingly, perhaps. But man, it got bad this week! Lorazepam barely touched it. My cuticles are a bloody massacre.


Not enough I feel bad of my own accord. The other day, I went to a bar to kill time between appointments, and ended up drinking with this "really nice" girl. There were clues but I didn't put them together till later... I think she was hitting on me?

Ewwww!!!! REally???? What next???

So on top of being sick, penniless, and jobless, and feeling discouraged, inept, clueless, anxious, etc, I now also feel disgusted and disgusting.

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