Hi,

Thanks Hockey. Yeah, there were other weird things about that situation that weirded me out, and that I feel I should have figured out or tried to. Maybe it was nothing, but I don't know. Then there's something that isn't about her but about me. She brought the last beer without asking, and I really didn't want it. I kind of objected but then finished it just because I felt awkward and afraid to offend her. I don't understand why I couldn't just say, thanks, but I am good -- and I'm disgusted with my spinelessness in that. I have done this on other occasions, not involving alcohol and not under the influence. I'm just spineless.

The family... yeah, I know. And I'd ignore it if I could, but I can't because I have been talked to about it constantly, have had people carrying on about it around me, have had to research the legal stuff etc. So I'm basically just real sick of it all.

Thanks for not being disgusted with me, lol. And it's true, the really disgusting ones probably do not feel disgusted with themeselves, lol.

waves