Wow.

Powerful essay.

Most people have no clue what we have to hide every day. I get so frustrated and angry with what I cannot do anymore that I will go overboard and do more than I should, just to prove to myself that I still have some kind of self-respect. Then, I end up depressed as my super-human efforts go unnoticed, and their results even ignored!!!!!

I've been dealing with this almost two years now. Three years ago, I confess that I would have wondered if most of us were not just whiners or crazy, drug-addicted depressives. I admit, I found myself convicted and guilty as I dealt, and continue to deal, with just those attitudes from others. I had someone ask me recently about a mutual aquaintance who is having severe mental/social problems and has been acting in bizzare ways. This person had many of these issues prior to her CRPS dianosis, and people were trying to say that she is 'faking' the CRPS to not be held responsible for her behavior. I couldn't give them the answer they wanted. I had to say that her standing mental illness is actually making the CRPS treatment harder, and she probably is suffering more than they give her credit for. "Oh", was the only response.

I was also angry at God. I stopped going to church. Over time, I realized that my anger was really displaced. It takes different people different amounts of time to heal, and some never do. I just cannot imagine trying to go through this alone, and with no hope. At least I have that again.


I think most of us can relate to this essay at some point in our journey. Her words stunned me in their accuracy of how I have felt at times(thankfully few), but have been so afraid to let anyone see. The hope in it is that for most of us, it passes, at least for long enough to get our bearings back again.

Personally, I wasn't drawn into clicking on the ads, so I got to miss that part of the whole thing.....

Thanks Sandel!