Adalaide,I'm so sorry your dealing with so much at the time.
Emotional and physically is a huge thorn. I'm also scare while I'm in the grocery stores,kids running around,people pushing you,is ridiculous how people behave this days.
Nothing worries me more than be hurt,is likes when I got up the car,my body gets in paranoiac mode,always looking around and protecting my injure foot and also my scs surgical sites,they hurt as hell.
I wish we all can have that imaginary light that say red,don't get close,yellow,be careful and green I'm ok, sadly We can't control others bad behavior,is real frustrating,
I wish that episode can stay behind soon and you recover your trust on being outside,we always going to be scare,we shouldn't ,but is unfortunately our reality.
Receive gentle hugs and blessing hoping you soon will get better,from Jesika.