I was probably silly to post. I don't really expect any solutions. There aren't many solutions one can offer to someone who has a problem doing anything. I mean, I can think of one, but it isn't helpful: roll over and die. See what I mean? LOL. At least you guys were more creative and more positive than that!

It's actually very, very important that I do not give up. I've done that before -- in the guise of "acceptance" or "healing" or "recovering" etc -- for periods of time. It makes things get worse that much faster.

Moneywise, I am almost completely wiped out. That's why it's so important that I find a job (i.e. look for a job, refresh my skillset, etc...). Sigh, dog chasing tail. I've been trying, and have managed to do a little, but am not nearly as active about the job search as circumstances would warrant.

Someone needs to pay me money to watch old reruns, or play solitaire. And I know how pathetic that sounds, believe me.

I just have to keep trying to scratch at the surface I suppose. Maybe eventually I'll wear it down and break through. I probably need a kick in the pants. Honestly, I'm not even sure it would work. I guess we'll find out, because sooner or later, if I keep up the way I'm going, life will see to that.

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