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Join Date: Apr 2014
Posts: 95
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Junior Member
Join Date: Apr 2014
Posts: 95
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Somewhat tangentially related to this... it really sucks when you realize that some decisions you want to make are, at heart, really just ways to try to take control of your life because you feel a complete lack of it post - concussion(s). The cat thing - whatever. I'm not going to do it. It's stupid and I recognize that.
But I've been thinking about buying property for several months now. I went and talked with my parents today who gave me a reality check. A bit harsh and nothing I wasn't really expecting but it got me to thinking after the fact as to why it's become such an urge. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm 33 in a week and I'd really like to leave the apartment scene. But I realize a big part is just wanting to have control over a big aspect in my life because it feels like the TBI has taken control.
God I hate that. I was so independent. I did whatever I wanted to without considering this stupid little demon in my head. Now everything I do I have to take into account can I handle it? It sucks.
I know you guys know what that's like.
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What Happened: 3/6/14 I was leaning in to pick my phone off the floor of my car and hit my head on the door frame. No immediate problems but I woke up the following day with blurred vision, nausea, fogginess and memory issues. Headaches came the next day along with speech problems. CT scan was clear. Took a few weeks off work. Went back for half days for two weeks.
Then: 4/14/14 While still recovering from the first concussion I hit my head on the edge of my desk. Immediate headache, nausea and blurred vision. Doctor referred me to a neurologist who prescribed physical therapy for my neck, as I get incredibly stiff/sore necks daily which helps to bring on the headaches. Doctor also referred me to a counselor, who is helping me to cope with the anxiety and panic that has come up in my post concussion world. I deal with severe sensory problems and the frequent bout of aphasia.
And Then : 10/6/14 I was cleaning something (ok cat puke) up from underneath my new glass table when I stood up too fast right into it and voila, trauma #3. I was out of work for a month and a half this time. Noise problems, aphasia, etc.
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