Father
Brother
Mother

Oh for this hopeless feeling pass
There is a terrible hold
My feelings a number of
NEGITIVE factors
My well being affecting my mind
Ripping away at this soul
I stay close to you Father
Brother hold me tight
Mother give me your strength
There is reality still to settle in
The thaught of not being a productive
human out in the workforce and even though
I have put in my time
you get that one Father
as you were there all my life
Why must I suffer depression
at this point in life
why must it be so overwhelming
and out of coping skills
I talk with my shrink
This week will be interesting
he just listens and confirms
"no an easy life Eva"
No turd
get this out of me
I don't want it anywhere near it
It consumes to much of my life
Strips me of happiness
I hate being restricted
I hate having to take Meds
I hate my depression because of it
I hate that my family suffers
I hate that evil has such a hold
I hate the people who hurt me
I hate the hospitals
I have no trust in the human anymore
I have given of myself in ways that gone
above and beyond anything to help my
family
I hate the misconduct of anyone disrespectful
towards anyone who was just there for you in
everyway
There a blessings among us at all times
It is the evil that robs it from you
To fight this ruthless dare I say cancer
It is powerful and I must overcome this feeling
Of hopelessness
It isn't
It is this rat that keeps stealing the day
Let it shine in my heart
Let me kick this thing in its ***
Let me be that take charge everyday
every moment
Let me not loose it
I know my plate is full
I also know one situation at a time
This to I know will ease up a bit
Never discouraging my baby
Taught them the stars are theirs
I need to practice this myself
I have never experienced what I did
two days ago
"It" is slowly lifting
Hope not to be visited
by it sometime soon
Me