oh i do not think so
just in the last two days
my daughter Corissa has had her girlfriend over the house
yesterday and Corissa had chores 2 loads of laundry
a load of towels from the pool ready for tomorrow
and asked her both days when her girlfriend to do the loads
the second load was bed sheets pillowcases and such

now between Christine and Corissas behavior
as i dare come out of my room

to give Christine the time for mom and baby to continue bond-ship
that out the window
she has turned into such a cruel spirited
mother
said in anger
"i don't want to be a mother"
"it"s too much work"
anger no anger
somethings just should not be said
and that was one of them

Corissa on the other hand
decided not to come home
after sending her to the store for

milk
eggs
turkey
cheese
rolls
bag of ice
that was three and a half hours ago
i contacted her girlfriend
knowing that's where she went
not only won't Corissa answer my calls or texts
but her girlfriend someone who i spoke to openly
still yet to hear from her parents

Corissa is NOT in school anymore
at sixteen she now says her life is over
going this route certainly changed everything
her GED TO FOLLOW
i only pray
i don't get it
what do the youth of today
put out into the world
and now Corissa in an adult world
still a child
hoped she would understand
she did not have to have sex yet
and that sex and people to have it with will always
be in her life
so many things pushed into
and thinking it's okay
it wasn't okay not to be in class because she
wants to hang out
why oh why is it like this
what happened to parent and child
why is it i have to accept everything they want

all happens in due time

why is she obsessed with this girlfriend
who her parents only just found confirmation
she is gay

now being upset with Corissa
knowing she has taken this argument
and using it to get what she wants
seeing her girlfriend
her family is going to the Dominic Republic
and what she'll come walking up to the door
and say i'm sorry

there is way too much for me to swallow
i don't know where to shove this

my brain is fried
i am a floor mat to them
and i'm sick of it
what else is left if you
don't have family
crying my heart out
a little hurt from all of them
me