I am having a hissy fit.

No, I am having an EP version of the mother of all hissy fits.

RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAGHHHHHHHGHHHHAHRRRHHHHHGHGHHHH! !!!!





I have been hissy-fitting for the past maybe 6 hours. A few of those I was asleep (inadvertently dropped off after the beer had right at gabapentin peak. ). So you'd think sleep would nix a hissy fit, right? Wrong! Right back where I was emotionally when I woke up.

It isn't about the coffee or the reflu or the gabapentin, directly. But kind of indirectly. We are having food fights, so to speak. Mom is trying to be nice and her version of nice is making me stuff or buying me stuff or suggesting stuff for me to eat that I am not intterested in. Also with the sleep/coffee being a mess, I dont' like to have to commit to being awake for food right now, and I don't want to have to commit to eating any specific thing.

Result: I feel presssured, and kind of fenced in, and that upsets me.

Tomorrow is a special occasion. I should be happy instead all I can think is there's more food pressure, and how the hell am I going to be able to eat all the salmon for dinner. It's filling and I can't seem to handle a normal-sized meal (my normal is already small).

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