Have to agree, please space out your paragraphs, wow, very hard to read! Now as to your dilemma, you are not alone. I unfortunately am no longer in my wonderful 30's, but in my 40's now. Going on mid 40's actually.

DH is going on mid 50's so intimacy issues for us is not an issue do to dh's age more than anything, and now do to my MS, its not a big deal to me either. When it was a big deal, yes it hurt I put on a brave face and acted my way thru it so he wouldn't know I was hurting till after.

No need for him to know or for both of us to be disappointed. I get where your coming from. You really need to talk with a doc that will listen and help you. 34 is way to young call it quits on this. With your supportive dh, you'll do great!