My dear friends

As i only know to well what co dependency can do
to a relationships let alone a whole tiny family
like mine
I have the knowledge as my soberiety comes first
This they see and understand
HB I believe as you so dearly express
They have their own path to live and learn
I "the go to person" not as enabler for they all
understand stepping into anyone else's shoes
is not a way of life
To live life through someone else is not "life"
I can only be functional when my Meds are in my body
with a clear mind of what would my Father have me do
It is even harder having to ask your child to leave when
she "mommy" can't give herself the gift of soberiety
This I know is work in progress
It is myself I have to stay out of my own way at times
so I can emotionally pull myself together
So I can be a functioning parent
And understand having more persons under one roof
will be challenging
The trick here "it" only works when "they" can
and when "they"
have to work at "it"
I understand addiction
it is my first skin
The one we shed everyday
and having not picked up
I know is a "BLESSING" in itself
to have to deal with
my own character defects is a job in itself
rarely I am blessed
For today the obsession for a "DRINK" is lifted
this is my drug of choice
All my doctors know
All
I have the upmost respect for one
who can be calm in a way about things
And I know that is a persons state of mind
A practice if you will
This is something I try and practice everyday
In my bed most of my days know
Having to hold my head up has begun to affect
my chest area
So submitting to this body sucks big time
Submitting to the challenge to deal with additicition
is something I know first hand
Tough love is tough in itself as those who follow my writings
will know what a toll it takes on me
The responses I have received are all welcomed
I cannot be the only one to have such dynamics goings on
And there is a lot of that
I am happy to be blessed to have
the right to become a mother
I so understand they are their own little people
the moment
they came out of me
The privilege is I at some point in my life
was abusive not good i know
I lost my privileges to many even my children
And what persons do not understand
Addiction
in all forms
are a progression in
the hope you get hooked
And I did
I deny nothing that is true
And that doesn't mean my truth
Just the plain truth
So I thank you from the bottom of my
heart your input is received
I am the one who asks and I trust your response to be real
When sharing ones experience strengths and hopes
are BLESSINGS
LOVE HURTS
when your loved ones are in pain in one way of another
and they come to me
I will not say no
It's great to have shoulders to lean on
May I be there for you
Me