Originally Posted by eva5667faliure

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

the process of managing my rage
when not on my meds
something no one needed to know
everything was suppose to be ready
it should have been thrown out
and i am to shut my brain down
while i walk sit lay
nothing
did i take any meds
no
i am afraid my body has
already built a a tolerance
and to walk around
and remember what my supervisor
now a second title president of the city
association
"lie" so i could receive comp case
fact we will never know if lifting industrial
wash bucket and mop wasn't
the cause of my neck
Father
you know how angry i was when my supervisor
suggested
where is the reward for doing the right thing
my body is worth nothing
i wouldn't want myself
so to be alone seems more and more
a reality
i do not do well when persons get paid
the money and just stand around walk back and forth
while waiting for a judge late
no apologies
what more to have to endure
my daughter not getting her turd together
become the next reality
i have too be what to my grandchild
you let the devil mess with over and over
and the fact i watched 98% interpreter was necessary
my thaught went to what would happen if i needed
one
brought me back to school
no bilingual help for me
oh heck no
then i think to myself why i walking in the
Mayors office there is public information about
something
next i hear my daughter say where is this in English
the fella says turn the sheet of paper a stack of them
i take the stack eyeballed it turned a half over in one
language and the other in English

really

i can't believe the mental stress i encountered
just because of language barrier on several
situations

WHY Father

the chances of an only space
going to see the director
and the meter not working
my daughter video taped me putting in a second
quarter
and it was only understood via the video

WHY Father

to be humiliated when finally before the judge
not knowing how to plead
i was guilty to a point
he just malicious

WHY Father

i am in a funk long enough
and have this added turd to take
care of

my whole being

BROKEN
me