I tell ya Mark, last year I was so depressed I slept all day and stayed up all night, felt my life was over and cried all the time, hardly went anywhere except to therapy where I broke down too and yes...46 is not old, not at all!

When I was told you will never be the same I gave up, I was a hiker, a mountain climber, it killed me not being able to do it, now I go for walks and keep trying to think positive and hope I can get back to more aggressive stuff.

I remember one day just feeling so awful stuffed from cake, chocolate...my weaknesses!! and I couldn't stop but then did think stop it, you deserve to be fit and well so do it for yourself and so I started small, just eating healthy and for me it really affected my mood, felt better within that first week.

Then slowly started walking and felt better in my head afterwards so kept on doing it, now I miss if I can't get outside.

One step in front of the other...day by day...I know how hard it is but you are not alone with all this, I know you have been suffering for a long time,