oh my god we are so in the same boat. People including friends and family think I gave up my job making three times as much as my disability so I could stay home and rot. Incredible. My big problem is forgetting what I was making and learn to live with what I'm getting now and not dwell on the past. much easier said than done. Also I would pay all the money I have for one decent 8 hour at least 7 hours a night of sleep with no interruptions and not remember any of my dreams and my trembling lol