What's maybe strange is I feel fatigue at times, too. It might be physical though, becuase sometimes I feel simultaneously "up" and fatigued. I've been gettng these wicked upper back/neck aches. I was sleeping not much -- and can function on less sleep, but past 2 nights I've gotten 8 horus solid, dead to the world. Wake up feeling tired but too energetic even to want to stay in bed.. which is very out of character for me... I'm a big lounger normally. I pulled out an exercise mat... am going to try to do exercises for my back. The mat stinks though, liteerally. It smells like nail polish remover, so it is on the porch destinkifying itself, for the moment. I might get a stepper that my mom also likes to use... that would help with my knee. And am thinking of retrying the pool on a pay-per-visit basis so no commitment.

Oh and I ordered a DBT workbook that my friend's therapist recommended. I have a lot of borderline-like features that this book is good for helping. If I can get a handle on some, even partially, it will help me in allaspects of my life. And I hope it helps deal with obsessive stuff too because that's been bad lately... it gets bad at times where it stops me from doing things.

Last time I felt like this I wwrote. Fiction. This time I will try to learn stuff ... computer stuff... like writing a web service for starters... And maybe write again. I do love to write, when it flows....