I don't call it whining and when you wrote that I thought you were beating yourself up again and not entitling yourself just to tell it how it is right now.
I am so sorry about the weight gain. Topamax helps curb the appetite.
Abilify if you can take it supposedly doesn't have the weight gain effects of risperdal and topamax can replace lithium. I am focussing on that part of the message although purple is one of my favorite colors although i would faint if i saw it in urine, but I gained over 100 pounds because of these medications
so I think the side effects are a very serious issue.
Bobby