I hate to see all this sufferingin the world. I wish I could make it go away. my father died when I was 14 and my self pity fest lasted my whole life until I ruined myself by drinking with a dangerous mediation, which caused my first acquired head injury followed by a concussion and another acquired brain injury caused by a doctor. so I'm a mess but I started it and I feel like I had it so good and didn't realize it. now I see how much suffering there is in the world and I hate it. I never saw it when I was healthy