nk you both my depression is better today it don’t last long now that I have treatment and what I need
I also got more pain pills and that helps have to be positive about every little thing
I just worry im not trying or working hard enough
So many worse accomplish more I feel like im wimping out
We went to her family reunion and wow those low sitting fold up fabric chair things
I got stuck every time
I also get so scared my time is running out
My leg is worse every day but I push and refuse to let it win
Unlike fibro it fights back nasty and hard but im feeling positive
I got out I walked I moved and even went to walmart
But my lower back and my leg made me go to the car
I have gone to the next state over and do have the best you can in tis area my doc fights druge because he cares and always blood test keeping up with meds
The specialist was same place
Its not so much bad o neglectful treatment as it is there out of options
At 40 my long list of docs and 11 years or so with them its like the rheumatologist
We have tried everything and were out of options
That’s a hard one to hear make you feel like some form of death
Eventhough iknow its not it’s a good way to explain how it feels
I have finally broke the camels back and cam to the end of the medical road
I wont accept defeat I wont stop asking my doc for only pain med that works
Cant help me I will help my self I found the best chiropractor in my life
He helps and it lasts a couple weeks he focuses on how far can we start making appointments
Im in ways glad to be at the end because that mean o we never saw that bofre or now you have tih or that prol
Im sorry to forum and members it wasn’t respectful
Its hard im at a age I pretend not to care pretend to be able to live without any contact
Life or the net I used to cause big wars now sad thing I come I try I am nice and curtious and others to make up for my post downfalls
And without fighting im banned two the other day
So I hope everyone can forgive me I get really paranoid and wait and watch for the hammer to hit
I never thought or remembered about bots and me I just ask come forward I honor anything asked with manners and respect I just want a place to stay

Thank you all so much for support and help I hope you have a good week