I am definetely trying to balance the good with the bad in all of this mess.

I have found three positives:
I've learned to appreciate and shrink my inner circle. I'm a giver and have run myself ragged over the years being there for people. Seeing the people who bailed while I am hurting well, I'm not blinking to cut them off and I don't feel one bit of guilt over it. I guess that sounds negative but its really a positive because in the past, I felt immense guilt if I lost relationships but now, I'm not letting people take advantage of me. It's also led me to really appreciate the people who really love and care for me.

I'm learning to say "no" which is very hard for me, see above.

I'm taking things a lot slower and being more organized. My life was pretty chaotic before. I'm learning to relax and take things one at a time.