brain injury caused by doctor. Job lost money lost health lost girlfriend resent the hell out of me for taking care of me the seven years. Family doesn't talk to me. Friends gone. Take whatever pill I can find to fall asleep again. It's just too painful and its not worth it. I don't believe in an afterlife so I'm not afraid of hell. I didn't take enough ***damn xanax last time. 4 years ago I took 60. What are you going to do I guess sometimes life works out and sometimes it doesn't. let me take an Ambien and go back to sleep.