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Originally Posted by angell
I realize that this topic might be a bit controversial, though that is not my intention. There just are very few places that I could discuss such a thing...
Like most of us here, I found this place as a result of disease. It is serious, painful and potentially deadly. I am at peace with my diagnosis's and believe wholeheartedly that this is the result of me turning my will and life over to the care of my understanding of a Higher Power.
"Use me as you see fit; for whatever purpose you have," was my wish. And I see reasons unfolding continuously. I see spiritual gifts that my wonderful wife and father have learned as they struggle to come to grips with this - lessons they struggled with, but now, with my life hanging in the balance as a motivating force, they've risen to the challenge.
Perhaps, it has occurred to me, that lessons learned this might be lifted from me one day - but honestly, I don't care. It's not my life anymore - I gave it away happily and I don't want it back. I'm happier today than I've ever been and the joy keeps growing. I have a greater purpose today than any I've ever enjoyed.
Am I alone?
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I guess for me, it was the acceptance of my 24/7 pain as well as being on narcotic meds for the rest of my life that helped turn the negative into more positives. I pray daily to cope and accept what God permits to happen to me.
I do admit I still go thru times when I am getting down. I try not to dwell on what I can no longer do. I realize for the sake of myself and family I need to try the best I can to make the most of each day.
Gerry