im posting in here due to to many disorders i try to say gifts to list

after enough years it just becomes a sick sense of humor

those old sliding roof to floor folder holders last i asked i took 5 of them packed full

well its the digital age so can i get them on dvd(i used to have copy's of all my records before it got this bad)

the desk said over a thousand dollars

wow i guess im being dissected and studied when i die lmao

i lost count of my doctors over the years

the last one just passed out like candy and never did blood tests to keep up

after him IL medicare was bad at paying bills so a town 40 miles away with supposedly some of the best care

told me to stuff it wont accept medicare

i called another state asked them we dont care come on up

thats where i got my current and going to keep doc

i come off wrong on here and fight to much with him

when the truth is he always keeps up blood tests cholesterol etc he even does dumb tests i see on net or tv when he knows the answers

the fight and problem with pain meds i have switched so much i have been on morphine Vicodin everything

he now doesn't trust i will stick or stay happy

he also wants me aware of nerve damage and pain Torrance will go down

all the worries and by the book

ok but im missing a drug that could give me mobility

i mean for the pain posts i went to that state yesterday i went to a store for prescription i went to my chiro and other

im active and this and others force me to relize no matter the pain im blessed because no matter how much or little im mobile and can fight and ignore my pain

you get tired after a while of were out of options you have tried everything

even my chiro we have done and do all we can to your lower back be happy when you get 4 hours in a bed well today i pushed the pain omg my back is screaming so bad

but at least chiro has positive your getting more relaxed and easy to adjust

your middle upper and neck are getting stronger

hey the small things at this point i call vitorys

i go to chiro my lower lasted a day or tow the rest a week or so unless i fall

me and him unlike other chiros he wants me to push pain limits see can you do a month month and half

finally not you have to 30 or more chiros i know when i finally found gold

his attitude encouragement how he adjusts to much to list

but its a sad time all my care except counseling and shrink wow another mirical awesome in my town

but all the rest is in WI not IL my doc was ignoring my bad IT band saying its fibro hey who can blame him fibro chronic we get hard to tell and very tiring

so i emails that town with supposedly great docs and care

one night they called same as last time with this town just new reason

sorry we wont take chronic pain patients

so i got very very angry 9pm wife screaming about gas time etc i jumped in the car went to my providers ER and wow a doc said thats your IT band is damaged PT may lessen but we cant fix

wow took a while to take that in another blow to trying to stay moving

im sorry GOd and religious people but i screamed in my head what is this a joke a game im active lets throw this at you

im still processing to this day and yesterday at my chiro had another development

my lower back can pint that IT so hard i went in seeing stars almost passing out all that he adjusts me

wow i can walk its hard to focus on good and whats left when everyone

keeps sucker punching you from all sides and no time to catch your bearings

my back has always be diagnose as going narrow and dropping me hard because it pinches nerves now it does my leg to

i got a email from the specialist out of options were getting a new pain specialist soon

o joy nag about diet stop drugs therapy by muscle bound idiots who dont know how to take it easy

and everyone telling me im lying

i want therapy i called medicare because medicare requires steps of improvement

medicare told me they can call and ask for indefinite i could have therapy

but nobody will call no im lying so PT after PT fails

im not sure debating about seeing this new doc when she gets there

the only progress and im doing good theres change is my counseling and shrink

all my other docs we ran out of ideas and options years ago

they cant even explain huge swelling pain and hands lock like ostio or worse

nope sorry were out and cant do its a waste to try

so i got good care in another state sad i had to do that shows my states declining healthcare and standards

but even my new docs are out of answers

i was diagnose in my town with dead spots and a dying calcifying gland in my brain

no normal migraine symptoms it just gets bad fast and i pass out

well the beta blockers and blood crap they give me stop off and on and they have to cycle them

im also on emergency fast dissolve under the tong pills o man nasty

my point medical care for most anyone on this site any problem is longer and harder searching than it should be

me i got Chicago IL i heard has lots of good specialists

Madison WI is supposed to have some

and so on

im happy enough where i am just get fed up with running out of answers

tired of being 6.3 330pnds and i should be 200

im 40 i dont expect miricals maybe 10 15 or so pounds

but a year long fight over my cpap machine is at a stand off
(i just had a 3rd sleep study i woke at 4am i was bouncing hyper and energy

i took a walk, i went home and did bunch of cleaning, then i mowed the lawn the whole thing not half small yard 3 room house)

i just dont have the tools to lessen pain give the energy and pain regen at night pills its all missing

i dropped the ball on catching my weight early i accept my part i dropped it on exercise but now i cant try to fix that with so much missing

but the positive im so proud i keep it almost rock solid 330 331

im proud so far cholesterol blood pressure diabetes everything missing normal and very good

so hey i wish you all the best of luck and like so many have offered me dont stop fighting for answers and better care

me its not quitting but knowing when defeated and just beating my head to try to find more answers or docs

good luck take care